Running late tonight

My child won't go to sleep tonight. I tried for an hour and a half to get her to go to bed and now I've surrendered and she's happily playing with toys, WAY past her bedtime. Hopefully, she'll sleep in tomorrow morning. That's the great thing about fostering in Antigua, especially when the baby can't leave the house-- we have nothing to do tomorrow! If we sleep in until 10 am no one will be the wiser! And honestly, our mornings have gotten much later and lazier since we moved into this house. My room is completely dark with the door closed and, without the sun to wake us up, we're sleeping about two hours longer in the morning than we were at Casa Bella (up at 8 instead of 6). And with no lunch dates or shopping trips anymore, we pretty much laze around in our pajamas until almost noon. The time we get into the shower is getting later each day. I think my hair was still wet from my shower at 2 pm today! As Irene put it this morning "The closer we get to leaving, the less we care about doing anything".

Of course, once we're OUT and can leave the house again, I'm sure all this will change. And we'll have to start acclimating ourselves to a more normal schedule. But we're not out yet, and until we are, we're going to enjoy our pajama time!

And speaking of PGN, here are the answers to a few FAQ's
1. No, we haven't heard anything
2. Yes, sometimes no news is a good thing
3. Yes, we're getting anxious to go home
4. Files are averaging about 8.5 weeks in PGN, so we've probably got at least another week to go!
5. How am I feeling? Scared, nervous, hopeful, weary, excited - sometimes all at once! I honestly don't know how to feel. I want to trust in the Lord through all of this, but since I can't read His mind, I don't know for certain that we're getting out this time. It's not that I don't trust Him, but that I can't convince myself that we're getting out for sure. I don't know that. I believe that one day we'll go home with all of this behind us, but I don't know when that will be. And I'm struggling to let go of my own will and desires. I need to just let go, believe, and trust. Not my will, but Thy will be done! It's so much easier said than done. Especially when the reality is that my file is going to come out of PGN sometime in the next couple weeks, with either a previo or an approval. It's really hard not to be thinking about myself and how I will be affected by PGN's decision.

OK, enough of my late-night ramblings. Hasta manana.