"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28

Nine days. We've been in for nine days. Well five, really, if you don't count weekends. One week down and how many to go? There is no guarrantee, ever, in international adoptions. There is no guarrantee with PGN. And I'm just weary. I'm weary of wondering and holding on and being strong and missing my husband. And I'm just lifting it up to Jesus today. I look at this little girl, so absolutely adorable in her little polka dot top, and I KNOW that this is by God's design. He spoke the desire to adopt into our hearts and has led us through to this point. I look at her, and I remember everything He has provided for, and I know He will carry us home. But then I think of other people of faith who have lost their children and I can't help but wonder. Is this the Enemy trying to speak fear into my heart? Trying to poke a hole of worry into my balloon of Faith?

Lord, I don't know for sure what you have in store for our family, but I believe, no matter what, that it is part of Your design. I know You are sovereign. I know Your heart for children and orphans and I know you hear our prayers. Lord, please restore peace in my heart. I come to You, with my worries and burdens, and ask that You give me rest.